It is evening and I’m standing outside on the edge of a road leading out of a town that is unknown to me. Unknown because I have never been here before. I do not recognize the place, yet there is a sense of deja vu. There are no other people about, yet I don’t feel alone. I understand just what it means to be comfortable in your own skin. I find that I am comfortable everywhere. I think that maybe I have the good fortune to never be in harm’s way.
As I look up at the stars there was a blast of light miles away from me, down the road and way out of town. It lights up the buildings, streets, parked vehicles and clumps of trees. The burst of light evaporates, leaving the night sky glowing with a hazy, putrid pinkish-yellow pallor. I hear someone say that it was an atomic explosion. Sirens sound and loudspeakers advise people to either wear their masks or just not breathe. I don’t see any loudspeakers and do not know where that advice was coming from. People start emerging from their dwellings and making a a panicked and exaggerated show of donning the cloth masks once worm during the height of the epidemic. I don’t have a mask and find it absurd to hold my breath.
I tell myself: Fuck it. I take a couple of deep breaths. I feel some relief from the tension and fear in the air. I come to the conclusion that I’ve lived long enough in this interesting world, that I had my fill of wonder and joy, and have no interest surviving in a world that is seriously compromised by a possible apocalyptic event. I do not want to live in a place where everyday promises to be a struggle. Nope.
I defiantly take some deep breaths and wait to see what will happen next.
Nothing does.