Some cheap plastic piece of crap sitting in the weeds, leaning against a wall that hasn’t seen a fresh coat in twenty years.
Dwayne—whoever the hell he is— probably punched a hole in the drywall, kicked the dog, yelled at the neighbors for parking too close. they stuck him out here to sweat it out.
but now the chair’s alone, just like the rest of us.
Benny woke up before dawn, as he often did these days. The silence of early morning had become a refuge, a time when the world felt less demanding and more contemplative. But today, something was different. A phrase repeated itself in his mind like a mantra: “Embrace the signs.”
The words were so persistent that Benny rose from bed and scribbled them into the notebook he kept on his nightstand. “Embrace the signs,” he murmured under his breath, trying to decipher their meaning. Was it a dream? A message? A warning? Or was it something deeper—a nudge from the universe, or perhaps from his own fragmented sense of self?
The day began uneventfully. Benny worked at a small downtown bookstore, a part-time job that’s stretched into it’s second year, a placeholder until what came next. He helped visitors navigate the dusty aisles of the used book section, and enjoyed answering questions and making recommendations. Most of the time it was quiet work, solitary, but Benny didn’t mind. He had learned to live within the quiet, to find meaning in the stillness, to begin to feel comfortable within himself. Yet, as the hours unfolded, the signs started to appear.
It began with a magazine. Benny was shelving the newly delivered periodicals when his eyes caught a headline: “Follow the Path Ahead.” The phrase struck him as odd, almost personal. He stacked a weekly and another headline seemed to leap out: “Decisions Shape Destiny.” These phrases landed not just in his mind, but in his chest, like a pulse reminding him of something unnameable—a need to connect, to understand, to be.
By lunchtime, Benny began to dismiss it as coincidence. He walked to a nearby café, ordered his usual black coffee, and sat by the window. He liked to watch the passersby, but today, as he lifted his cup, he overheard snippets of conversations from other tables. “Sometimes you just have to trust the signs,” one woman said to her friend. Benny froze, his hand mid-stir. Then a man’s voice carried over: “You can’t keep ignoring what’s right in front of you.”
The words echoed within him, not as commands, but as questions. Was he ignoring something? What was right in front of him? The idea unsettled him, not because of its clarity, but because of its vagueness. What did it mean to “see” the signs? What did it mean to feel the weight of their presence in the fabric of his being?
That evening, Benny sat at home in his cluttered apartment, played some jazz, the phrase “Embrace the signs” looping in his mind. He opened a book at random, an old novel he’d been meaning to read. The first line his eyes landed on read: “Every journey begins with acknowledgment of the road.” He slammed the book shut and stared at it, unnerved. Was this an external force or his own subconscious unraveling?
For days, the signs persisted. They came in street graffiti, in the way leaves fell in patterns on the sidewalk, in words emphasized by strangers. A billboard near the bookstore changed its slogan to “The Future is Yours to Read.” Benny couldn’t tell if it was a genuine coincidence or a targeted assault on his sense of reality. Each moment seemed to demand something of him, not just attention, but an acknowledgment of existence itself, of being part of a larger whole.
Then, one night, the dream came. In the dream, Benny stood on a highway stretching endlessly into the horizon. The road was littered with signs, some pointing forward, others warning of danger. He felt paralyzed by the choices. A glowing sign ahead flashed: “The Way Forward.” Benny took a hesitant step toward it but stumbled as the road beneath him cracked open. He woke with a jolt, drenched in sweat, the disquieting sensation of having faced something too vast to comprehend.
The dream left Benny with a single question: What was the “way forward” in his own life? Was it a tangible action, or was it about redefining his perception—learning to see, feel, and be in the world with greater clarity and courage? Benny’s relationships had grown distant in recent years. After a bitter breakup with his long-term girlfriend Lily, he had retreated into himself, finding solace in routine and isolation. His friendships had dwindled to polite texts exchanged on birthdays and holidays. He hadn’t spoken to his brother, Sparky, in months—their last conversation had ended in an argument over something so trivial Benny couldn’t even remember it. These fractures gnawed at him, not because of guilt, but because they represented a disconnection from something essential: the shared experience of living. “Embrace the signs,” he muttered to himself again, this time with a tinge of sarcasm. What signs? What could they possibly want from him? Were they external forces trying to guide him, or internal reflections of his own neglected longings?
But the signs grew bolder. One afternoon, as Benny biked home from work, he passed an old diner he hadn’t noticed before. Its neon sign read: “Second Chances Served Daily.” Without thinking, Benny stopped and walked inside. The place was nearly empty, save for an older man nursing a coffee at the counter. Benny slid into a booth, ordered a pastrami sandwich, and looked around. The walls were lined with black-and-white photos of couples, families, and friends laughing and embracing. He felt a pang of longing—when was the last time he’d been part of something like that? His sandwich arrived, and with it, a small folded note. Bennie frowned and looked up at the waitress, but she had already turned away. He unfolded the note, his heart pounding.
It read: “Call him.”
Benny’s stomach twisted. The first name that came to mind was Sparky. He hadn’t even considered calling his brother; their relationship felt too fractured, too far gone. But the signs were relentless. He pulled out his phone and stared at the screen for what felt like an eternity. Finally, he dialed.
Sparky answered on the third ring. “Benny?” His voice was cautious, uncertain.
“Hey,” Benny said, his voice faltering. “I, uh, just wanted to check in. See how you’re doing.”
There was a pause. Benny braced himself for rejection, but then Sparky said, “I’m good. Better now, I think. It’s good to hear from you.”
They talked for an hour, about nothing and everything. By the time Benny hung up, he felt lighter, as though a weight he hadn’t realized he was carrying had been lifted. The call wasn’t just about reconnecting with his brother; it was about rediscovering a part of himself he thought he’d lost.
Over the next few weeks, Bennie began to “embrace the signs” more consciously. When he saw a flyer for a local photography class, he signed up, despite not having picked up a camera in couple of years. When a stranger at the bookstore mentioned a community running group, Bennie joined. He wasn’t athletic, but running was big in the town and it was something he wanted to try. Each step felt like an affirmation of his presence in the world.
The signs didn’t always lead to grand revelations or life-changing moments. Sometimes they led to small, quiet joys: a sunset hike that left him breathless, a photograph he might want to send to someone, a new friend he met at the photography class who shared his love for books or music. Each moment deepened his connection to the world, to others, and to himself.
One day, while organizing the store’s delivery of used books, Benny found an old postcard tucked inside a forgotten book. It showed a winding road disappearing into the distance. On the back, in faded ink, someone had written: “The journey is the destination.” Benny smiled. Maybe the signs weren’t about a specific path or goal. Maybe they were simply a reminder to pay attention, to feel, to live—to embrace his own existence as it unfolded.
As he left the bookstore that evening, Benny passed the diner again. The neon sign flickered, its message changing just as he looked up: “You’re on your way.”
The harmonica, a small but mighty instrument, has left an indelible mark on American music. Known for its distinctive, soulful sound, the harmonica is often associated with blues, folk, country, and rock music. Its appeal lies in its portability, affordability, and versatility, allowing musicians to express complex emotions across a range of genres. Although its origins are rooted outside the U.S., the harmonica became an essential part of American music in the 19th and 20th centuries, shaping genres and adding depth to musical expression.
This week Next To Silence is not so much a history of the harmonica in American Music as a appreciation, which features a collection of some of my favorite tunes that feature the mouth harp. We’ll hear the harmonica featured in different genres – blues, pop, rock, movie soundtracks, country, and African music.
Playlist for the week of November 18, 2024:
00:00:00 John Mayall – Room To Move
00:07:01 Little Walter – Juke
00:09:43 Stevie Wonder – Fingertips Pt 2
00:12:52 The Lovin’ Spoonful – Lonely – Instrumental
00:16:11 Captain Beefheart & His Magic Band – Gimme Dat Harp Boy
00:19:42 The Paul Butterfield Blues Band – Born in Chicago
00:27:47 Ennio Morricone – Man with a Harmonica
00:26:13 Toots Thielemans – Scotch On The Rocks
00:32:15 Cream – Rollin’ and Tumblin’ – Live
00:37:16 Charlie Musselwhite – Christo Redemptor
00:40:34 John Barry – Midnight Cowboy
00:43::19 Sonny Boy Williamson II; The Yardbirds – Mister Downchild – Live
00:47:26 SOBA; Moussa Koita; Jean-Emile Biayenda; Vincent Bucher – Tounga
0:51:41 – Canned Heat – On The Road Again
00:55:04 The Rolling Stones – Midnight Rambler
01:01:54 The Doobie Brothers – Long Train Runnin’
01:05:20 Led Zeppelin – When the Levee Breaks
01:15:09 Joe Filisko & Eric Noden – Destination Unknown
01:17:4 Billy Joel – Piano Man
01:23:21 The J. Geils Band – Whammer Jammer
01:25:57 Bruce Springsteen – The Promised Land
01:30:24 Blues Traveler – Run-Around
01:35:01 Bob Dylan – I Want You
01:38:05 The Beatles -Love Me Do
01:40:24 Jethro Tull -Some Day the Sun Won’t Shine for You
This show pays tribute to some of the recording artists we’ve lost in 2024. There are way too many for me to include on one show, and I have selected some of the artists who, for one reason or another, resonated for me.
This week’s playlist:
00:00:00 The Shangri-Las – Remember (Walkin’ In The Sand)
00:05:59 Melanie – Brand New Key
00:08:24 John Kander; Chita Rivera; Chicago Ensemble; Stanley Lebowsky – All That Jazz (from “Chicago”)
00:11:34 MC5 – Kick Out the Jams
00:14:11 Bob Marley & The Wailers – Lively Up Yourself
00:23:19 Jello Biafra; Mojo Nixon – Love Me I’m a Liberal
00:27:20 Allman Brothers Band – Revival
00:31:25 Duane Eddy – Rebel Rouser
00:33:44 Spider John Koerner – Rattlesnake
00:35:19 Mansour Seck – Almany Bocoum
00:42:10 Françoise Hardy – Le temps de l’amour
00:46:14 Kinky Friedman – We Reserve The Right To Refuse Service To You
00:50:16 Ali Farka Touré; Toumani Diabaté – Ruby
00:56:12 John Mayall – Room To Move
01:00:45 Sergio Mendes & Brasil ’66 – Mas Que Nada
01:03:22 Kris Kristofferson – Me and Bobby McGee
01:07:37 It’s A Beautiful Day – White Bird
01:17:29 Grateful Dead -Box of Rain
01:22:46 Michael Jackson – Wanna Be Startin’ Somethin’
01:28:45 Martial Solal; Niels-Henning Ørsted Pedersen – Spring Swing
01:33:55 Cissy Houston – Think It Over
01:39:45 Onyeka Onwenu – Iyogogo
01:44:46 Chick Corea -Samba Yantra
01:48:42 P.D.Q.Bach; Peter Schickele; The Greater Hoople Area Off-Season Philharmonic -1712 Overture S. 1712
The awning stretches forward, thin steel bones, holding the weight of absence. A cracked line of pavement, its edges curling upward, a slow retreat from purpose.
Weeds twist between fractures, their stubborn green cutting through the gray, a quiet defiance unnoticed, persistent.
The sky folds low, soft with clouds— no sun, only a dim light slipping across the surface, settling into shadow.
What was here is no longer here, yet the space remembers, waiting, its silence a language we cannot yet speak.
This week Next to Silence celebrates the holidays with Christmas Music from Africa and the Caribbean. We’ll hear holiday tunes from South Africa, Nigeria, Ghana, the Democratic Republic of Congo, Cabo Verde,Cameroon, Jamaica,Tobago, and Bahamas.
Playlist:
00:00:00 Judith Sephuma – African Christmas
00:05:53 Various African Artists -12 Days of Christmas – Coke Studio Africa
00:10:29 Kwadwo Donkoh – Yema Mo Afehyia Pa Papa Na Oye Bone Nyina Nko
00:20:53 Papa Wemba; Mino Cinelu – Angels We Have Heard On High
00:24:58 Donsam; Soulbrother All Stars – Christmas Abiago
00:28:41 Maike Watson; VOX Cape Town – Christmas In Africa
00:33:27 Cesária Evora – Natal
00:38:30 Tunde Ednut – Jingle Bell Bell
00:41:45 African Christmas – White Christmas
00:43:48 Tunde Ednut; Tiwa Savage; Davido; Seun Kuti – Jingle Bell
Standing steady above the bar, A red glow against the geometry of walls, Illuminated through his plastic skin, Abiding warmth in the darkest nights.
Santa, unswerved amid chaos, Beckons the timeless mirror of imagination, Reflecting anticipation, Bestowing rewards for those
Who sustain unwavering belief in the spirit of hope, His gaze fixed on it all down below, An emblem of steadfast persistence when The season shifts from festivity to memory.